Thursday, October 30, 2008

Global Anxiety

So I listen to NPR every morning while I'm getting ready for the day. I do this for two reasons: 1.) I don't watch TV, so have to keep up with what's going on the world somehow, and 2.) I really don't care for most radio station morning shows...cause I'm not really that interested in celebrity gossip. (P.S. I just heard that JamieLynn Spears is preggo again...shocker. I know, I'm behind, I think I learned that while waiting in line a the grocery store.)

So me and NPR are wicked besties, but lately, and I hate to say this, listening practically gives me a panic attack. In addition to my usual stressors (i.e. consumer debt, my family, dating, demand on my time, etc.) I've now adopted global anxiety.

My internal dialog has gone from something like, "OMG, I have to pay off my credit card...really, where ARE the normal grown up men?...is 8:30 too early to go bed?"

to

"Great, we're either going to be Socialists or all be required to become NRA members, good work bipartisanship!...just why is it ok to bailout people who bought too much house??? ...Poor Georgia, shame on you Russia!...Is health care really a right like liberty and the pursuit of happiness? Where does it say that?....that Hugo Chavez really should stop with the getting everyone all worked up about the "Empire" we're not that bad, sheesh...OMG, I'm never going to get out of debt and neither will the US! Maybe everything will crash and American Express with let me off the hook...I'm moving to Italy...or Australia...or a hut in Bali"

So, I literally start having a mild panic attack this morning. Because the global anxiety hasn't replaced my personal anxiety, it's just ganged up with it to bully me. That's when I decided that a CD was a better alternative...at least for today.

So, I can't help but wonder (I know, I watch too much Sex And The City), what are we to do? Certainly I'm not the only person feeling the anxiety of our tumultuous times. How do we deal with it? Do we roll with punches and make the best of it or do we take a stand? And if we take a stand who and what are we standing up against? With globalization and age of information, the Boogie Man of ages past has become illusive and indistinct. He used to hide in our closest or under our beds, but now he's in our email, our electronic identities, our foreign policies, our suspicious neighbors, our toxic foods and unpredictable stock markets.

Do we fight this illusive enemy, Fear, or do we retreat to under our beds and inside our closets and hope for the best with the good old fashioned Boogie Man to keep us company?

Monday, October 20, 2008

Bad Dates and Chinese Food

Yesterday I was at a little social gathering telling an animated story of my most recent bad date, which had the group in tears laughing. They suggested I start a blog cataloging my misadventures. I would love to do this and talk about all of the ridiculous things that I've seen/heard/done/been subjected to, but I'm hesitant for a few reasons:

1. I would be terrified that the boys I went out with would read the blog
2. and then I would never go on any dates ever again
3. It seems not-nice to post those stories on the world wide web
4. But I do tell them at parties...

Any thoughts?

Also, I had Chinese for lunch today and my fortune says, "You have a charming way with words and should write a book". I read it and jokingly said to my coworker, "that, or sit in a cubicle for 50 hours a week...it's a toss up." But really...aren't those our options? Surpass or surrender. Exceed or settle. I mean, I realize it's a process and I'm not beating myself up about not living up to my potential (or my fortune cookie) at the moment.

Another fun quote of the day from E.B. White:

"I get up every morning determined to both change the world and to have one hell of a good time. Sometimes, this makes planning the day difficult."

I'm commited to the idea of finding a way to change the world AND have one hell of a good time. Anyone care to join me?

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Tyler is better than me...

Tyler is better than me....
because she is better at keeping up with the blog...

She is awesome!

Here is a simple quote from me, inspired by the past weeks:

"I choose to learn about politics from comedians, and religion from poetry."

Therefore, Chris Rock and Rumi are my two greatest teachers of the moment!